where the fire flies congregate

fields of open space
in universal darkness
where only neon flashes escape
beneath the stars they are amongst them
where the fire flies congratgate
in hopes to procreate
span out for miles
at night where the wilderness is wild
and forever they search for a mate
in hopes they arent tricked
by predators who will end their fate
Lonely lovers soaring around
in pitch black summer cool
without a sound
There is no light to guide their ways
they are that light which never fades
Let them be found for what they are
a tiny insect with one incentive
that they'll find love no matter how far
in this time of stars and light
On my bike I ride along
I watch the show of a glowing fight
how beautiful is today's tonight
and as i quickly ride on home
I hit one on my handle bars.
late arrival i assume,
poorly realizing what I've caused
tonight someone will go home alone

The R Files

On the eve of some December a few years back I felt something I never felt before.
True heartache. I grabbed a small notebook to fill it with drawings and excerpts of how I was feeling at the time until the day i stopped feeling it and I dedicate it to the one who made me grieve so much... it's an on going project and always will be but I want to shed some light onto some of the writings.  He will one day get the entire notebook just not today.


Blinded
He is the Blinded one, the one chosen to search forever


You can have me
You had me, you have me. With or without me


Standstill
Don't lie to me
Don't lie to me
I believe we're at a standstill
I believe this is goodbye
so if you can only hold me
if you could only hold me one last time
you can feel me die
and I'll hold onto that whiskey legacy


Fool
after all the fools
I still prefer you
good for nothing, heartbreaking jew
(I thought of you today, much to my dismay)


Just a Woman
Now I'm just a woman... in your arms
I'm beggin' and pleadin'
(now) please don't be leavin'
me nooo harm
Now I'm just a woman... in your arms
I'm beggin' and pleadin' and screamin' and bleedi'
don't leave
me nooo harm


The Truth
I want to know the truth. I want to know your lies.
I want to know if you ever cared when I was by your side



Please
Share your thoughts of heart aches and lost loves.....

~Karla

Endearing and fearing

So these next few poems/ lyrics are a little embarrassing for me because they are more intimate, personal and graphic.  Touchy subjects so let you imagination flow

Karla Mera

All my ex-lovers
For all my lovers, I chose to leave
They chose to lead themselves away
I don't know why. Were they afraid?
was their only intent to get laid?
Now I'm longed for and sought after
say you miss me and my laughter
my smile, my tits, my body, my bliss
Make you want me, make you wish
I've not forgotten the good times
sex and lies
and grain and wine
I'm a sex god, a prodigy
of wit and clit

(Date: 2011     by: Karla Mera)



Just as we are now
Sweat soaked sheets, you are delightful
caress bare back, our kisses vocal
and he dreams beneath the harsh sun beams
I cast a shadow, watch the breathing
safe and sound I have no reason
why right now wouldn't be the perfect time to die
why right now wouldn't be the perfect place to lye
happy and floating around
hoping I don't hit the ground
Where we are sun rays do the kissing
for us, sun rays non stopping
so we can look back and say that was us
and no one saw us
Just as we are now
Holding my breath while you grasp my hand
Stare into your eyes
I know you know baby
I know the contours of your body
fingers slide on skin
Soulful healing
you girl are more than just endearing

Gattaca

I saw Gattaca again the other day and felt inspired to write a poem I titled of coarse, Gattaca.
I'm quite proud of it.    Also attach are some older writings from my youth.

Gattaca
The concept of body and mind
in which we intertwine
our thoughts and actions
are only a fraction
of what the universe holds
Choosing to hide and deceive
what humans normally perceive
Shunned from actuality
only to be protected by practicality
What is real anymore?

(Date: 5/25/2011   By: Karla Mera)


De-flowered
Flowers all around me and I need to be watered
Petals puling slowly . To know is to be deflowered
I know he knows that I can't be consoled
for him I'm not the only bud that lost its soul

(Date: 2008   By: Karla Mera)


Untitled - inspired by  Women's Studies class
You got those crazy eyes again
Darlin' you got me beggin'
Tell me where my place is
Scream and tell me how dumb I is
Because when you touch me it hurts
When I hold you it hurts
and for some strange reason I don't work
I do everything right, so wrong
And for some strange reason we don't work
Someday honey you'll be gone
on that day I'll know we were wrong

(Date: 2/11/2009     By: Karla Mera)


Currently I am watching Lady GaGa's Inside the Outside special and though I am not the biggest fan of her music (I do Love most of her songs) I respect her as a self made artist, business women, entrepreneur and motivator. She's great

Becoming Public With my Poetry

I have so many note books upon notebooks from age 12 to now of writings and poetry that i have hidden from the world because i was too shy and to afraid of criticism
I wasn't sure if I would be good enough in other peoples eyes and now at 21 I want to expose myself.
I want my Friends, Family and strangers to give me their input. I am proud of my writings, poetry and lyrics

and yes i have copy written all of these
if you like what you read let me know, if you know people who buy songs... tell them about me :)

So here is goes:

Standing, Walking, Flying
Standing is pointless
Walking is useless
Flying, well flying is a risk
A risk few are willing to take
... but the only way to succeed

(Date: unknown By: Karla Mera)



Put Down & Put Out
Cool air rides down my cloth-less back
You strum away on your guitar
(While) the clock continually complicates
I stare on, brushing off fate
please, just put down your guitar
We have run out of time
Let bare legs intertwine
Love can be found at the center of our souls
Where he's been every night, each one I wish I froze
One last time
Where'd you go?

(Date: 2007   By: Karla Mera)




Untitled
If I could drink my night towards you
I would do it, I'd do you
Green and Grey eyes
Mezmorise
and who between two thighs
If I should give in so easily
Sweep my off my feet
To your bed, set me free
In and out of self awareness
In and out, In and out
Bent limbs and in all fareness
putting out, making us both speechless

(Date: 2008   By: Karla Mera)

The Business Look

Hey Guys!
It's been a long time since I updated my creative self
hard t be creative
when you have to focus of so much work and a senior projectnone the less, I hope my fashion sense hasnt been altered

I call this the Look 1



It's my fall 2010 Business attire

I know we are headed to winter but it was really nice out tonight and i thought i looked cute

hope you like my fashion sense and enjoy the video i made for it







That great song you are hear is You & I by Quincy Vidal... a purchase act.  They are amazingly talented and unknown.  They have an album out and FREE for Downloading... but definitly support them

from 5 cents to 5 dollars! donate whatever you can... They are great and deserve every penning

Download the album here
and while you'r at it CHECK THEM OUT ON FACEBOOK

Until next time guys! stay creative
be happy with your unknown self
HAPPY THANKSGIVING!

Regaining the Self

(c) Karla Mera 2010

I've decided that this week i wanted to take control of where my photography was going.  As you can tell I am doing Sports Photography as my Internship and as much as it challenges me, and makes me work hard to get the perfect shot I have realized that it is not my cup of tea, AND I LOVE TEA!  Actually being forced to take photographs in general isn't what I want to do with my Photography, I found that I am more Artistic in the way I handle the photographs I take... whether it be for portrait photography, Band photography, Night photography etc... I want to be able to love the process of taking photos

(c) Karla Mera 2010

 ... but with the Sports photography

1) There is never enough light
2) the refs and coaches get mad when you use flash
3) I find myself hating my work
4) I definitely don't want to photograph as a career, just as a freelance photographer... if the project is right (which most of the time is, just not sports ) then im into it

Anyways as you can see I needed to step away from sports photography and do something that'll make me happy, and what makes me happy is having NEW photos of myself online, not just new candid photos... i am talking about new, artistic, professional photos.  Since there is a lack of photographers that want to take pictures of me (or take photos at all) i usually take my own photos which means i do all my self portraits

IF YOU ARE A TALENTED PHOTOGRAPHER LOOKING FOR SOMEONE TO TAKE PHOTOS OF, I AM YOUR GIRL. I'LL MODEL FOR YOU, JUST NOT NUDE... AT LEAST NOT COMPLETELY NUDE
key word: talented photographer

(c) Karla Mera 2010

I love taking photos of myself, especially because I am to short to model, I can always model for myself and have the ability to rake control of how the final product comes out

That being said I am also helping a friend out with his up and coming Website that will have T-shirts, Hoodies, tote bads etc,  and he wants me to take the background photograph! So cool. especially when the website is launched it'll be my work.  There is still some time before that happens but until then here's what I have been working on.  I love just shooting photographs that interest me.  I like to make things look different then what they appear.

(c) Karla Mera 2010

Take for example Purchase College, Most students at Purchase College take photographs at the college but fail to make Purchase NOT look like Purchase, and it makes me upset when great photographer come here and do exactly that.  Make Purchase College NOT look like purchase, come on guys I know you're talented... TRY HARDER

It also feels good to be love what I do again.  I feel as though I sometimes fail at Sports photography and just want to give up.  I AM going to push through but i like to be creative and curious and I can't do that when I am given rules and restrictions.  I am an Artist, I demand I be treated like one.

Karla Mera's Room

The work (not of me) that you see are all taken at Purchase College and I am quite proud of them! makes me feel like I am doing something right. OH! and the last one is my messy apartment room, I am showing you this because I truly believe most genius's are messy slobs and im not the exception. As you know, I am a creative unknown

Let me know what you think, I'D LOVE TO HEAR YOUR FEEDBACK AND definitely take a gander at the Facebook page

ps- Should I revive the Myspace page?

all links in this blog are linked to talented photographer i adore and think you should check out, that or Purchase College Facebook Page

~Karla